why i down today??i was think in the pool just now...the answer is dunno...even take out my heart and see also dunno why i feel my heart is bleeding...i feel that i will 'beng kui' soon...so please becareful...i also dunno what will happen...and please take care of me also...i scared i do something to myself...just now i almost accident...normally i drove home took 25-30 min...today i used almost 20min...im not in the rush...but i like the feeling of driving fast...expecialy when i not happy...in pool got two people realize that im sad and down...izzit because of ling?yes,abit...the other reason i know is i cant swim well...i hate to follew behind...i hate to keep asking other people go first cause i too slow...i hate i cant finish and tahan the program...this few days the program were very easy...but i felt very tired...now nag change to shah alam...if comfirm got open mean i must swim...now i train like shit how to go competition??i swim also memalukan diri and the state...i train until that day if i still cant swim well i wont join the competition...i better train hard and swim well in malaysia open...
i was regret i din went shah alam today...maybe i went also cant change or help anything...but at least im beside you my dear friend...hey dear,cheep up k...you still got prakl...im sure prakl you can swim better than msss...of cause in msss you also not bad...got improve also ma...then prakl improve again lo...prakl i will there and always cheer for you and jun...i hope both of you can do well in prakl...
can anyone make me cry??now i very jealous the people who can cry easily...i feel like crying but i cant make my tear come out...it just make my heart more pain until i cant breath...am i stupid??why i always make myself suffer??i know no one will care about me...and i wont tell anyone about this...so i wrote it here to make myself better...except some people who read my blog...
anyway,i want to sleep now...i dun want to sleep late again...
cheer up my dear friend
miss you K...
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