Boring!!!

i so long din blog liaw...erm,alot of thing happened...ok,i finish my exam long long time ago...and now i having holiday until jan 17...

i so boring at home...everyday wake up eat then dunno do what then eat then sleep...i feel like training but i scared other people will say something...so now when i free then go pool for while la...

haiya,i dunno what to write la...wish me luck...

one more

ok,one finish and one more paper...i really want to thanks the lecture who teach...the force area she gave only half out...and the chapter not under her force area took almost 70%...

of cause i cant blame you...im the one who need to blame...i really feel disappointed of myself...yes,i study very hard for it...but when i went in the exam room my brain blank...nothing come out...yes,my homework all i know and understand...but in the exam im like stupid...i sat there 3 hours and i dunno what i writing and calculating...i dun dare to look at my note...i scared what i wrote is wrong...

ok,one more...and this one i failed last time...i dun want good result...i just want pass enough...

Exam coming soon

ya...my exam coming...and i try very very to study...but i still worry...i cant fail anymore...i dun want waste my time again...

izzit too stress or what...my stomach pain again...the same place last time...everytime study sure pain...it started last week...everytime i sit on the chair and open my book it come...sometime can pain until i cry...i dunno why this few day i felt very tired but i cant sleep at night...one whole day like dead fish...

i hope faster finish exam then i cant relax liaw...
God Bless Me!!!
Good Luck!!!

run away from home

what the fuck man...i really want to run away from my house...shit la stupid...i dunno what the fucking happen...this few days the atmosphere in house was damn damn bad...i felt very the not comfortable in my house...feel like run away and go far far away...now i wish to go out everyday and go home late...what the fuck...

(sorry for so rude)

Random

ok,first thanks to jun for the wonderful scrapbook...I sure you used a lot of time to make it...i love it very much...thank you...

second,i want to talk about college...i felt very boring lo...maybe i dunno anyone there la...erm,and monday got one guy talked to me...actually he want to borrow note,then we started to chat...the note only 2 pages and he can copy 40min...cause he keep talking...haha...quite fun la...and the most funny thing was we talk so long but we dunno each other name...what hell man...oh ya,yesterday i suppose help tania to bring her present to vj for his birthday...but i not free and luckily i din go cause vj not in...then i gave him today...and today lecture said coming monday got test...haih!?

third,i miss my baby G...

Happy Birthday to myself

ok,yesterday was my birthday and thanks for all the wishes...

i din celebrated my birthday...just everything normal...dinner with family,friends came my house gave me present...oh,and sis bought a cake for me...

oh oh,special thanks to tania...thanks for calling all the way from us...so touching and so sweet...haha...and thanks to melissa came my house just to give me present...thanks to my aunty gave my angpao...and bazil, still remember my birthday...not bad...haha...

thank you very much to all of you...

Happy Birthday (yesterday one)

i want to wish my friends happy birthday here...wish you all happy always and good luck in everything you do...sorry for i din buy any present for you two...cause really busy and dunno what to buy...so...sorry la...

erm,and i also want to wish Selina happy birthday...wish you get well soon and take care...i read the blog on your company website, your husband really a good guy...hope to see both of you marry soon...you will be the most beautiful bride in the world...

(this i should write yesterday, but i not free so i write now la)

心痛

这就是心痛的感觉吗？从你发生意外到现在，我未曾开心过。天天看你的新闻，我的眼泪都会在我的眼睛里打转。现在我会天天为你祈祷，希望你早日康复。

heartbreak

what a bad news...selina just went back to taiwan hospital...her hand,leg,back all injured...today i readed newspaper and i saw the picture i really sad...my heart like bleeding...not because she is my idol, is becasue she is a pretty women and she gonna get marry next year...now suddenly accident, somemore so serious...newspaper said that maybe she cant wear mini skirt anymore...and she cut off her hair...then how she wear wedding dress?

damn i hate that director...stupid guy...they din try the boom before they start film...what we already tried 6,7 times before film...bullshit la...if like this why got accident...f you la...not only selina injured...the other guy from china also injured very seriously...both of them went in the store room then suddenly 'boom'...only can see the fire and smoke...they knew today got fire screen why they dun call a water car to stand by...when both of them came out they were suffering...keep asking for water and crying...

haih!? hope she get well soon and the guy also...

damn tired...

Wah!? first time felt so tired after comp...im dying in the pool just now...althought i only swam 4 events in two days...but i reallt felt like dying after 50free...then straight away swam relay and swam fly...OMG man...i keep sitting down cause my leg already numd and i cant stand properly...when i stood up my eye all black then gastric AGAIN...but lucky i got money la...the funny thing was i dunno why all the auntie uncle talked to me...and i dunno who are they... :-p

What would you do?

today i watched a very nice movie...funny,touching and the most i like was the friendship between the four person...a couple passed away and left a baby and their best friends, a guy and a women who hate each other, they became the guardian of the baby...it was funny to see how they take care of a baby...but sad to see them suffer so much for the baby...and touching was they can take care of their best friends baby even they really suffer...

i like the story...i like the friendship between them...a true friends...
what would you do if you suddenly become the guardian of a baby?

College again

haih!? start college again...so boring...yesterday went for first class...erm,the lecture not bad...although the subject i learn before but i already forgot everything...langsung tak tau apa dia cakap...haha...i must hardworking to complete diploma...then i wont waste my 4 years time...

and...i checked UPM got faculty of veterinary...and guess what they need to qualify for entry??B+ in Biology and Chemistry in the Sijil Tinggi Pelajaran Malaysia... Entrants need a minimum score of three in the Malaysian University English Test (MUET)...OMG!? this is too hard for me...i dun think i can make it...

so sad!? my dream habis liaw...

Melacca

in melacca now...3 days 2 nights trip...and i realize melacca nothing to play...damn boring...and my friends just bring me go eat...i sure i go back sure fat already...yesterday passed the hotel i stay during sukma...then passed by alot of places we passed by during sukma..i miss sukma very much...lucky din go swimming pool..if not i think i will cry...oh ya,and just now i dinner at the fish & chip resturant (i forgot the name)...i miss the moment we had dinner there and palying laught there...made me almost want to cry liaw...

this time i came melacca is just to review the wonderful moment in sukma...i will never forget sukma everythink everyone...miss you guys very much...love you...

Steamboat Buffer!!!

yesterday went dinner with my 'old friends'...haha...what a nice day...we went sunway eat steamboat buffer...erm,the place not bad la...food also nice but the best was the tom yam soup...spice and delicious!!! i like it le...yeah,got new place for steamboat liaw...haha...i just ate yesterday but now i miss it liaw...i ate alot o...i dun care...next week sure go again one...this time with family...i think they like it too...and not expensive only rm26.8 per person plus tea...

very funny lo...my whole family like steamboat very much...haha...if raining day my father sure steamboat one...if we dunno where to eat also steamboat...haha...i love steamboat...

寂寞寂寞就好

还是原来那个我 不过撂掉几公升泪所以变瘦
对着镜子我承诺 迟早我会换这张脸应对笑容
不算什么 爱错就爱错早点认错 早一点解脱

我寂寞寂寞就好 这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到 受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到 忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的 借来的都该还掉
我总会把你戒掉

还是原来那个你 是我自己做梦你又改变什么
再多的爱也没用 每个人有每个人的业障因果
会有什么 什么都没有早点看破 才看的见以后

我寂寞寂寞就好 这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到 受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好 你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到 忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的 我总会把你戒掉

Fat!!!

OMG!!! I fat liaw...shit la...i already control...my parent la...every night dinner keep ask me want add rice want add rice...why eat so little?you enought or not o...Walau!?

Gastric

yesterday went dinner with friends...felt very happy...maybe dinner too late i gastric...pain until want to cry liaw...but i friends dun realize until dinner finish then i told them...of cause i kena marah la...i hate gastric...cant walk properly cant breath...and now still pain...made me one whole day like dead fish...

two more week my life will change...good or bad? seriously i worry...i dunno what to do...think too much at home...feel like going somewhere alone to relax my mind...

Exercise

i went jogging today...about 10min...damn tired le...tomorrow my leg sure very pain one...

damn it...from 8 something ding ding dong dong until now still ding ding dong dong...not feeling well, want to wake up late also cant...

is not over

you!!! you make my life suck...went aus also can dream of you one...why you keep on disturbing me? i already cut off everything and dun want see your face liaw...you still want to come in my dream...damn it la...

i'm back

almost one week im back from australia...australia was damn nice...i love it...i wish i can study and work there...so many hot guy...haha...and the thing i like is they treat animal very good...i went gold coast and brisbane...but i like gold coast more..erm,actually i like sea world and currumbin zoo (i dun really know the name)...haha...how wonderful if i work there...

this trip i really happy...9 days trip so fast finish and now back to the 'real' life...i miss australia!!!

Farewell

time to say good bye...you please take care of yourself and good luck...

happy: i no need to see you and your .. face...
sad: i cant see your face anymore...

everything must over now...Good Bye!!!

Down

erm,suddenly felt emo...why cant my happy feeling last long?

Puzzles

2 puzzles in three days!!! 1000 one o...

again

damn it...what i hate the most it happen again...this time i dunno what happen...this few days i dun want stay at home...anyone want to teman me..i can go every where just dun want stay at home...

LMF

LAZY MUTHA FUCKA-The Wild Lazy Tour ROCK!!!!

Sakit Perut

aiyo,stomache la...so damn painful...one whole day liaw...help me!!!

Step Up 3D

OMG!!! Step Up 3D was damn damn nice...i love this movie very much man...what an awesomee movie...

(i begging you stop it please)

Saturday

saturday was the day i gave away my first time...dun think wrong people...still remember that competition between me,sis,and brother's gf...it was my first time cook dinner...i cook myself o...not everyone can eat...felt so good while my family said its nice...even my aunt also said nice...so sombong...haha...

after dinner then went movie with friends...i watched the last airbender...erm,that movie ok ok la...after that they went to my house and talked gossip...haha...felt so nice talking with them...guess what time i slept that day...answer was 3...OMG!!! damn tired...

(you pergi jauh jauh la...stop appear in my dreams)...

Please Stop

can you please stop showing you face on my home page??? i really very tired liaw...what you want me to do?? delete you?? block you?? i dunno what i can do...

my heart broken...it is so hard to get over you...

angry???

did i angry or hate someone before?? erm,this is a good question...
my answer is i dunno...haha...

very funny right...why i din angry someone for long le? maybe for a few days la,then i can talk to you like normal..hate lagi tak payah cakap la...dun like got la...but also for a few days...even my ex i also like normal friend...for other people maybe cant la...

can anyone tell me why???
i really want to know...

useless

me: you are useless...
me: who??
me: me??
me: yes,im a useless..
me: oh yes,100% agree...
me: even in my dream also told everyone im useless...

so the conclusion is im useless...

THE END

I'm too free

izzit i too free at home so that everyone also asked me to do thing for them?? i realized something funny and maybe abit sad la,for me...

erm,my mum phone cant on then my dad said later baby woke up ask her check it lo...ok,i woke up then i checked and i fixed it...mum want to burn vcd and she asked me to do it...ok,i burn for her...my aunt computer got problem then she asked me what happen...ok,i fixed it again...my uncle want to put song in his iphone,he asked me how...ok,i told him and helped him...grandmum not feeling well,me fetched her see doctor...cousin need to go tuition but no one fetch,me again...dinner cant finish,me again...my house if anything spoil or got problem,me again...even my family member went out buy something also want me went together...my mum can called me 100 times in one day...i too free or i'm genuis and i can make everything perfect???

all this were just a small part...i too lazy to write here,if i want to write i think i can write until tomorrow morning...i'm happy that they asked me to help them...that mean i'm an useful person...but if i not in the mood then sorry la...

Old liaw

i think i old liaw...very easy feel tired now...

yesterday i slept at 1130...then i woke up 930 this morning...need to fetch grandmum to see doctor...i reached home 130...i am damn tired and i not feeling well...my whole body very hot and headache...i went in to my room,lock the door,set my alarm...lied on the bed,then i dunno what happen liaw...i fall asleep in 2min...now you know how tired im...i set my alarm 430 but i lied on the bed until 5 something...once i stand up i felt dizzy and i saw black...my headache getting worse...pain until i no mood to had my dinner...then one whole night like blur blur...

better sleep now,i dun want to fall a sick...

Busy Week part 2

i went out 3 times in 5 days...watched 3 movies in 3 days...haha...first time so busy...

Wah!?so tired today...yesterday jun overnight my house then guess what time we slept...hehe...we slept at 5 then woke up at 10...so tired o...we went mid for movies...we watched two movies in one day...despicable me was so funny and cute...haha...then teman jun watched
inception again...my eye so tired o...almost fall asleep in the cinema...then we so unlucky cause two movies also got some stupid make noise beside us...stupid them...

ok,i think i better sleep now...tomorrow need to wake up early...

have a nice day

so happy to meet you today...thanks for the movie and dinner :)

busy week

yesterday very fun...went out with jun and we shop for one whole day...and my leg now damn pain and tired...plus just now yoga lagi...my leg like want to patah liaw...when the time we want to go back yesterday,it was raining...i need to walk back from pavi to ts cause my car park there...lucky rain not very heavy...but my whole body wet...then today not feeling very well...now ok abit...

erm,today afternoon i received a call...this call really made me shock...kenneth called and told me that he already in kl...so sudden le...then we msg so long...erm,actually what my feeling now le...ex-boyfriend asked to go out...the feeling so weird...maybe tomorrow will go out with him...really dunno what to talk about lo...so funny...whatever la...

go outside also very good...so that i no need stay at home and see my parent 'cold war'...dunno when they can stop...

My Family

my family are so weird...sometime you will see them very good...but sometime they were like argued something stupid...

yesterday my parent went dinner...so me,my sis,my bro and his gf went movie together...we watch inception...this was a happy thing right...but my sis and bro were complaining about dunno some small stuff...made my happy feeling all gone...seriously,i hate when both of them argued...dunno why they always argued...sometime i hope both of them dun meet so they wont argue...after reach home argued again,i straight away went in my room and lock myself in the room...so that i cant hear anything...after a while my bro and his gf went out with friends...my house peace for while...about 130 i almost fall asleep...my mum called and asked me to open door for her...then i already knew what will happen...she angry...cause my father not coming back with her...and i also knew tomorrow what will happen...

today i woke up i already can felt that something not good,something bad...im right...my mum was angry my father...lucky they not at home one whole day...so i no need to stand between them and dunno what to do...they one whole day din talk to each other liaw...i hate that too...dinner we ate at home cause parent want to watch tv...so just four of us ate on the table...then suddenly my bro suggested some funny thing...he said me,my sis,and his gf one person cook one day dinner...see who cook better...it just like a competition...who lose belanja dinner...everything must do ourselves...other people cant help cant disturb...we can cook whatever we want and all of us agreed...cause i think it must be very fun...my bro suppost to join but his hand broke so he cant play...and im the first one who cook...that day everyone must at home...now i had to think what to cook liaw...scared...

i think all the family also like this right...

Noise

OMG!!! i really cant tahan my brother liaw...he so damn noise man...keep singing in front of me...then walk here walk there non stop...somemore he repeat and repeat singing the same song...he sang not nice also...and all the lyric wrong...even my mum also cant tahan...

hope he faster get well then go work...everyday 5 shape sure watch movie one...lucky today my cousin came and teman him...if not sure he ask me teman him...haih!? really cant tahan lo...only 3 days i surrender liaw...now you know how noise he is...

Not Well

Not feeling well this few day...the funny thing is i dunno what i not feeling well...my physical or mental? just the whole body like...not comfortable...so weird...but no matter what...i will try to get well soon...i will try to control my thinking or feeling or whatever la...

im someone who always think negative...i like sunset,i like night time,i like raining day...all this show that i really a unhappy person...even if i happy also cant last long...this is one of my friends told me...i everyday show other my happy face...but you dunno what i feel inside...i also dunno...i really dun like this kind of feeling...always make me want to do something bad...need help...maybe in the future someone can help me...and i hope you are the one...

i will try to take care of myself...

Brother's home

brother finally can came home...kesian him cant do anything...and kesian me had to do everything for him...but never mind...he safety home then happy la...doctor said he need two months to recover...but rest two weeks then can work liaw...lucky now he work in office...and lucky he injured his left hand not right hand...

he at home very noise...keep called me help him do this do that...really cant tahan him...today only the first day le...still got two weeks how to tahan...but nice too...we talked a lot,lunch together,watch movie together...we so long din sat together watch movie...sometime i saw him felt very pain...made me also pain liaw...hope he can get well fast...

God Bless You Brother!!!

Busy Day

what a busy day today...woke up 1030 then straight away went to hospital to visit my brother...yesterday doctor said he can went home today...so we waited for doctor to come and approve him out...we waited from 1130 until 130 doctor still haven come...so me and my parent went sunway walked for while...about 4 we went back to hospital...still cant go home yet...but i need to go home early and rest...felt not well since yesterday...

i reached home 5 ate some biscuit then went yoga 745...today someone suppost to teman me...but she cant make it...so sad...she come on monday...

headache now...panadol plus beer what will happen??

Bad Days

im damn tired...i only slept 5 hours last two day...somemore need to go work for sport excel...saturday really bad day...about 1pm my mum called and told me my brother broke his hand and went in hospital...she was so worry and keep on ask me what to do,what to do...i also blur liaw and i try to calm her and myself down...i really wanted to go hospital that time...but i need to fetch people and go putrajaya...so i stayed at pool...but i cant concentraded on what im doing...i wrote the time wrong...i cant hear the time properly...i keep looking on my phone and waiting my mum to call me to tell me hows my brother...i felt so uncomfortable...then my mum called and said he already in the hospital and waiting for doctor...she told me he very pain...then my heard like bleeding...i started cried...luckily no one see...i tried to comfort myself...

then the meet finish 715...i need to shower at pool...then rush to putrajaya...i went home change car cause not enough seat and fetch kahyan...we reach there 830...then about 5min the VIP came in...our timing so good...wait for them speeched and watched the stupid video clip...and something happened...a small cockroach on my plate...WTH man...so stupid...suddenly my mum called and told my brother went in operation room law...about 1 hour can finish...that time already 930...mean he from this morning 1130 pain until 930...we went home about 11...mum called again that my brother haven come out...i really want to get crazy liaw...said 1 hour can come out but now 2 hours liaw haven come out...damn it...i try not to think about it, we went supper and bought DVD...about 1230 my parent came back...and told me the whole story...i really cant tahan and i cried...darling was try to comfort me...thanks for that night and sorry made you slept so late...

sunday morning quite free cause less swimmers swim those two events...afternoon just like war...everyone were so busy...about 5 the competiton end...and i rush home cause family waiting for me to go to visit brother...we went dinner before we went hospital...i felt so tired and i no mood to eat...we reach there about 830...my brother look tired too...he said cant sleep well cause his hand pain and nurses came check every hour...i saw his hand swollow...i tried not look at him whole night...i scared i cant control my tear...doctor said his case very serious...so need to stay two day in hospital...when we want to go back he look so sad...i not looking at him and walk out fast...we reach home 11 and about 1130 i slept...i knew i very tired cause once i touch my bed then i dunno everything liaw...

two days woke up so early and i want to wake up late...but my mum accidently woke my up on dunno what time...then i continue slept until 1230...had my 'lunch' on 1...then fetched mum to hospital visit brother...and i went KD college to get my result and some documers...guess how long i wait there...i went there about 245,wait until 415...damn it man...i so damn angry...and luckily i settle everything...thursday or friday can go register...then i went pj to get something from my uncle...and............i stack in the jam 3 HOURS...i reach home 720...i rush to shower and pack my dinner to hospital to visit brother...i went pick up grandmum and pack dinner for brother...i reach hospital 830...my aunt came about 9 and my uncle drove the civic...cause sherene need car to work tomorrow...we went home 930...

this treed day really really crazy...many thing happened...i almost broke down...i tried so hard to not showing my family my feeling...i dun want them worry about me...tomorrow need to fetch brother from hospital...finally he can come home...but he need to rest 2 months...

bad days right...

Stupid College

what a bad day today...i want to transfer from KD to SJ...then i went to KD and ask for it...then one guy wrote something on a paper and told me 'you just go sj and tell them you transfer from KD then just resgiter there then can already, i will send your profile there'...so ok lo...no documers nothing...so i went SJ last week and ask...one guy told me 'i din get your profile here, but never mind i will ask them to send it here and you just resgiter, you just need to attend the subject you haven take'...ok very good...and i went resgiter today...another guy told me 'oh,you cant just resgiter like this,you need to go KD and get all the documers and your result to prove that you already took those subject, and the subject you got D are not counted pass here, so you need to retake it'...i like what the shit...that day said can now cant...the KD there din send my profile here...and that guy said no need any documers but now they need...

i damn angry man...i really want to f*** them one...then now want me go KD and get all the documers and go SJ resgiter...but i scared they already deleted my profile then i die lo...he said if dun have your result then you need to retake the whole diploma...i like..........no need study lo...waste my time and petrol...damn it...really regret study in this college...i should go the college got schoolarship...i think much much better than this...Damn!!!

Need You Now

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reaching for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without, I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time
It's a quarter after one I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now

Ooh...
Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothing at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without I just need you now
I just need you now
Oh baby I need you now

爱情...

爱不一定要拥有，放手也是一种爱... 谁可以那么伟大? 应该很少吧... 我常常对我自己说这句话，但我做不到... 我很想念你，我不想放手... 希望你会回来...

What my heart thinking??

anyone can tell me what my heart thinking about?? i really really dunno what it thinking... am i love him or just biasa him always msg?? why you so bad one? actually i normal one...but you keep disturb me and make me got feeling on you...then now you just leave me alone here...you told me you regret to let go me...but now why you treat me like this...you know what? since you told me that i was so happy about it...but after that you like nothing had happen...it really hurt...everytime i think about i was so sad...i everynight also try to make myself drunk...and one day i really drunk then i msg you but you no reply...then you know what happen? my mouth tasted something salt...i told myself just forget it...but it really hard for me...once i like something is forever...

today i drank again...but i not drunk...still can write blog...i regret din go out with you before you went back sabah...so regret now...anyway,wish you happy there and good luck...you will find a job soon...trust me...i support you...take care of youself...must eat in time...isaac,i miss you...

Tired and Fun...

yesterday went tania's farewell party at TQ hotel...i reached there about 130...so sorry tania i late...i thought will be boring cause darling and mak and ling din go...but quiet fun le...yew and fun very funny...plus sin seanne lagi...haha...very fun with you all...we talked about all the old time story...miss the time we together in pool...and they keep talking when jia hui come they will kacau him...it was so funny...

then we decide to watch movie...so me and kah yan went buy ticket...first we want to watch inception but full,so we watch sorcerer...i want to buy 430 one...but jia hui haven reach so we bought 550...actually i dun feel like watching...at the end i just watch...there were 11 people watching so i bought the whole roll...we leave the hotel then we went walk around then wait at the cinema...the movie quiet nice la...and yew sat beside me...she was keep on laughing...the whole movie can heard she laugh...haha...so cute...then 6 of us went dinner at gasonline...me,kahyan,jia hui,ss,tania,vj...the other went back...and something happen during our dinner...

so after dinner we went walk around and bought something to taina in S&J...we went in there about 2hours...kahyan choosing something to taina...then jia hui and ss were playing around in the shop...me and kahyan cant tahan them man...both of them were so funny...play this play that...and keep laughing out loud...we were the last customer...i think the workers also cant tahan them liaw...haha...then we went back about 1030...it was so tired but very fun...enjoy talking with them...i dunno they so funny one...haha...

taina...wish you good luck here and take care...miss you and love you always dear...

Love

Love is like a drug...

In Love with Story Book!!!

i just finish reading a story book named 'The Host'...and i like it very much...it made me cry...thanks to my darling that introduced this book to me...althought she told me the whole story before i read...but still make me cant stop reading it...i started like story book now...i only readed four books before...and 'The Host' was the best one...i will continue read story book...cause i enjoy the moment i sit there silent and concentrade on the book...and i will imagine the picture...it was intresting...and can make me forget everything while i reading...

will start other book soon...

Family...

family is the most important thing in the world...cause no matter what happen to you, your family will support you...family love is the most powerful...what boyfriend girlfriend ask them blah la...

i am so worry about my dad...now his like a body without soul...everyday stay at hom nothing to do...then his leg pain until cant sleep well at night...made my mum also cant sleep well...and i dunno what to do...i felt that im so useless...i cant help them anything...i only see them everyday suffer...my heart is bleeding...now im trying to make them feel better by talking with them and help them do this do that...sometime when i want to break down i will went training...only training can help forget about all this...

but now i no mood to go training anymore...my NAG was no well because i sick for 1 week and my body was weak...but no one care...the sad thing was no one know what happen to me...i know i not suppose to say that but i just want to write out all my feeling here...this three days competition my family no one care...only my mum ask how my comp...i think my brother dun even know i got comp and where i comp...cause my sis saw my picture then only she ask where i comp...ans she din asked anything about my comp...is this sad...i know my dad problem is the most important...but can they give me some support...why i training so hard for...no one care...i training until i want to die...no one care...i cried every night...no one care...in the morning i will try my best to not showing my sad face...i dun want they know...but i think if i show also no one care right...never mind...i already biasa alone...so please dun disturd me at night...i want to live in my world at night...

this is he first blog i write in 2010...mean this year will be a sad year for me...