worst comp=NAG

finally finish comp and also my exam...past few days was so so damn stress...not only comp and exam stress me...something happen during comp...

before comp i already kena lecture by my family...now this thing happen and make me feel like want to give up my swimming life...somemore i din get good result in NAG...all the timing deprove...maybe i no mood to swim la...or even i got mood also cant swim well...haih!?now i still thinking want to join Malaysia Open or not...if yes,i need to train for it...if no,then i think i will just stop swimming...i told my mum today that now i training so hard is to hit my target Sea Games...i hope i can join sea games once before i retired...now they need swimmer for 200 fly...if i want i think very hard la...sea games on nov or dec...but need to qualify through malaysia open...from now to malaysia open not more than one month...i dun think i can make it...the only chance is if i win M and M...still thinking...

exam lagi teruk...i study very hard and momerize all the notes but went in the hall forgot everything...i also dunno whats wrong with me...the funny thing was i exam half way i suddenly think of you...i mean K...suddenly miss you very much...then the one whole day thinking of you...you la...make me cant force on my exam...haih!?but seriously,i really miss you very much...

normally,i will cut my hair before comp...this time same,i cut my hair last wed...from half long to short...new hairstyle...i was shock after i cut it...lucky my family said ok and look younger...but until now i still not yet biasa short hair...

now i thinking i want to send a mail to you...i already know what to write to you...just want to see i dare to send or not...maybe yes maybe no...just wait la...

anyway,want to sleep liaw...woke up very early today...
nitenite...

Lazy!!!

haiyo,so lazy now la...but only in study...still got about 2 weeks exam liaw...just after NAG then the next day exam...somemore two subject in one day le...want to die lo...cant rest...im sure i wont go training that day...then other paper in wednesday...so tuesday i also wont go training...can skip two day training...haha...

haih!?now i look at the notes i feel very sleepy...although i woke up at 10 this morning...dunno why i always feel very sleepy in the afternoon...i slept early at night and woke up quick late in the morning...maybe i really tired la...training is getting hard this few days...actually programme not many...but i swam a few set then i start tired liaw and my muscle very tight...plus my stupid hand and leg pain...i only feel my right hand pain when i pull fly and my left leg pain while i do kicking or sprinting la...

seriously,i dun like study...i rather go work...but my bro and sis said better study...now very hard to find job...plus i only after spm...haih!?

anyway,i will think about it again...