Finally...

ok...OKH was finish...and i must start study now...exam is next week...i din touch the notes at all...im very lazy to study...i really suffer in study...everyone said it just a diploma and very easy one...for you all yes,but for me no...i hate study...my octorber exam result gonna come out soon....and i dunno got how many subject i fail again...if fail again i have to retake...mean i have to go college have class again...and need to pay rm6oo per subject...other people use 2 and half year for diploma and i almost 3 years to finish...maybe more than 3 years...

sunday i told my mum that if my exam fail again...i want to stop study...she just said if really cant finish then just stop lo,but try to finish it la...i count yesterday,i still got alot of subject to take...actually i finish all liaw...but i still got exam for those paper i not yet pass...it almost kill me...everytime exam i also very stress...i can sit in my room and study from morning until night...i only sleep a few hours...then continue study...my mum always scold me and pull me out from the room...if i not study like this how i gonna pass my exam??but my mum said,i dun want my daughter study until gila liaw...my family always ask me to relax...i know but i cant...anyway,thanks to my family...

now is the sad part,i suppost ready for swimming camp on thursday...i can feel that the camp must veru fun and the program very 'nice'...but i have to stop swimming for half year...need to rest and treat my hand,leg and my stomach...i gonna miss swimming very much...of cause my friends also...i sure will go visit you guys...but must after my exam la...dec 5 or 6 i will go visit you all k...

this is for my dear jun jun...i just readed you blog and i know you sick and not happy...i know i cant help you anything but i hope you can cheer up...i want you happy...tomorrow still sick then dun go training k...if you want to study then try to adjust you time table lo...maybe you can study while you rest in the pool...i know very hard la...another thing no need to worry about it...if you din effect your study or swimming then ok la...now what you need to do is rest more...oh ya,congrate you get overall...i know you dun really care...

and this is for my dear eiling...i dunno this few days why you emo...i think is the relay or that '?' problem...the relay already won so just forget it la...train hard lo...then next time can do 1.02 with me la...haha...same time friend...actually this competition your result ok ma...100fly imporve somemore...that 'girl' still lose to you...then later you can win me liaw lo...haha...if you want to improve the first thing of cause is train hard la...then thr second thing is trust coach...she know how to train you all...

both of you is my friends,best friends,sisters...i really very happy i can meet both of you and friends with...even though i met you two just about 2 years i think...but just like we meet very long time liaw...thank you for every thing...you two really help me alot...i know i will miss both of you very much...and i will remember the moment we together...i hope you two can happy during training although i not there...of cause train hard also...hehe...must always happy...dun emo or sad or cry because of that '?'...i think both of you know what i talking about...remember i will always here for you two...if got anything happy not happy or got problem also can msg me k...anyone bully you two tell me also...i help to kick their ass...haha...just half year...maybe i will go back and train...in this half year dun make me worry about you two o...if not i will everyday go pool and lecture...very scary one o...hehe...anyway,take care and happy always ya...

from,

mun mun with alot of love

i want to scold bad words!!!

wtf man...i really cant tahan liaw...WHAT THE FUCK...everytime also same...if only one maybe i still can win...but now plus one more...who the hell go complain...if i know who i will kick your ass and fuck you gila gila...i dun care who the hell are you...selangor or who...scared lose is it??come la...i wont give up so easily...you make me so angry and i wont let you happy...i die in the pool also must win...what the hell man...this few days my mood already not good...now i really like the whole body on fire...if you dun want get scold...then...leave me alone...weisze was right...once i angry...i also dun what the hell i will do...i think you all know also...

of cause in front of other people i will act like normal...but acutally inside my heart like want break liaw...i target so long for this year okh overall...then suddenly you swimming...singapore swimmers come...then now plus one more...damn la...maybe other clubs got swimmers in open le...then i die la...stupid la...feel like crying now...why???

i know i cant blame anyone...i slow other people fast...then sure lose la...i din train hard,leg injured,hand injured...all is my own problem...i should not scold other people...commpetition is like this...sure got win and lose...of cause if you are fast must win la...like me so slow sure lose lo...sure one la...this cant change...just can blame myself why din train hard...even i train hard also same...cause i not luck in swimming...i swam almost 14 years...got any result?NO...my 14 years swim life is just like a white paper...nothing special...just train hard like stupid,competition swam like stupid,the club not enough swimmer then i went there and became a stupid there...

i told my mum yesterday she is swimming then my mum said...you always no luck in swimming...just try your best la...this already have four people told me...my mum,coach,jun and ling...cause only them know what my feeling now...haih!?i think i should quit swimming...i feel that im the one extra in the pool...if im not there you guys can train better...so i will quit soon...dun worry...i wont kacau you guys anymore...anyway,i really enjoy and happy when i training with you guys...

Thank You Very Much...
Love You Guys...

unlucky...

haih!?why everytime also like this one...everytime give me a hope and when i though that i can make it then take away my hope...this is my life?can anyone tell me?why must do this to me?what to do?the person is my friend...not very close but still one of my old friend...i know i cant blame anyone...who ask me so slow...slow must lose la...people swim so fast...somemore the person went china...'o' swimmer...i just a slow state swimmer...how can i win?sukma individual medal also dun have...how i swim with this person?i not suppost to ask you just now...when competition only know is better...then i no need so fan now...damn it...headache...

today start morning training...and i slept very yesterday...about two i think...so this morning felt dizzy...now also got abit...but dun care liaw....rest also no use...still got 3 days OKH...actually is very important to me...but now......after competition one week then exam...stress again...stomach will pain again...haih!?coach...im feel so sorry to you..you put hope on me and i cant make it...you said you trust me but i dun trust myself...sorry...

i know i not suppost be like this...lose mean lose...cant change and no one can help...but i waiting for this chance for so long and i train hard for it...actually not really hard...this is my fault...haih!?no one will understand my feeling now...for you all is just a small matter...but for me is very important...i never get overall before...i mean in okh...sure got alot of people say...okh only ma,so serious for what?if you close with me and you will know...dun care what competition...i will be very serious...this is me...swimming is just my life...if can i hope i can swim forever...

the stupid feeling is coming back...only jun know about it...what can i do to make myself happy?anyone can make me happy?now i only can act like im happy in front of others people and family...i dun want them to worry about me...damn...stomach pain...jun,dun tell anyone what happen to me...i already put this as a private...she cant read anymore...this only you and ling know...now i feel like doing something...but i cant tell what i gonna do...if you know sure you will scold me...dun worry about me...i will try to control...

no mood to write liaw...if continue i scared i write all the bad words out...
anyway,wish my family and friends happy
love you guys...and K...
wish myself also...

New car is here...

haih!?so long din write liaw...too lazy and too busy...haha...i had exam yesterday...so no time write lo...haih!?let me think what i want to write today...erm...oh ya,we got our new car to nice nice or not...haha...not bad ho...i like the colour...this was so cool...i felt that this car is better than vios...i think this car only put there...i dun think i can drive it...cause my mum dun let...she said she very scared we drive car...so until now i only can drive KELISA...but sometime when she not here i will drive other cars...haha...and now she ok abit lo...i can whatever car i want but not city...haih!?not fair la...i want to be the one who drive the car first...my brother and sister they drive new car before and only me not yet...seriously,i also feel scared lo...new car le...somemore so expensive...if got something happen i also sakit hati o...see first la...maybe next time i can buy new car myself then i can drive everyday if i want...haha...'dreaming'...

acutally la...i very down this few days lo...but....i saw K yesterday...haha...we having exam together and he just sat in front of me...haha...so that 2 hours i only looking at him and i cant concentrate on exam...now only scared cant pass...die lo...and i saw him put his hand on my friend shoulder...i feel......jealous...oh man,why i got this kind of feeling...i dun want ba...anyone cant help me...so sad now...yesterday was the last time i can see him...we already finish study and left the college...K i will miss you very very much...DOWN again...wei ming went back labuan today...'hey jun,dun call him bfz la...no good la'...he msg me and told me yesterday...and today before his flight msg me again...i think he too boring in the airport...

today programmes
400warm up,4x100 im,50 easy,2x400 kick 25 fast 25 slow,50 easy,8x100 4 fly back 4 breast free,100 easy,2x(400,2x200 1 fast 1 slow,4x100 2 fast 2 slow)...1 set im 1 set free,300 easy...total 5500...

today was my first day went training after my 5 days rest...is so damn tired...but still can move...haha...too geng liaw...haha...just joking...400 im i swam 50 fly 350 free...200 was 50 fly 150 free,and 100 was 25 fly 75 free...200 im i did 2.42,100 im 1.17 and 1.14...400 free 5.05,200 2.27,100 1.10 and 1.12...my im fast le...cause i swam free...haha...i feel the best one was 400 free...almost my training best time...then the 100 start die liaw...cant move in the last set...lose to annie one touch...malu betul...hehe...today jeremy invite my to his birthday party this saturday...can i just wear normal shirt?why is make up party...erm,can i dun go...haha...let me think...

my hand really very pain la...this few days turn up also cant...no training pain,training also pain...better go training...haih!?okh just around the corner...still got 8 more days...how to swim...how to get overall...leg also start pain again...memang like orang cacat only...dun feel like swimming anymore...and i in all the events...aiyo,die la...sure after swim my hand and let bengkak like pig hand and leg...yo,so ugly...but if i really can get overall i think got prize or present right...i want to give it to someone...if i really get la...if not just forget about it...

haih!?others exam coming soon...have to start study now...lazy la...erm...okla,want to sleep lo...very the tired...
wish my family and friends happy and selamat tomorrow
love you guys...
love you K...

Dinner with family...

yesrterday night too tired liaw...so i write today...i suppose to study now...but no mood...dun care la...after dec exam dun want continue study...go work better...i think i will be more happy than now...

erm,yesterday very boring o...sat in front the computer whole day...played games...haha...facebook pet society is damn fun...thanks to yang jiew...everyday ask me play...haha...now i like a small kid only...play all this small kid games...my mum also said i gila liaw...hehe...really very fun la...the word challenge also very fun...jun i beat you liaw...haha...i wonder how yang jiew so play...he so geng o...i play so many time the best only 3900...haih!?my english suck...haha...

oh ya,yesterday night i went dinner with my family,my aunties family...we went steamboat again...when my father ask me then i say 'steamboat'...haha...cause that was celebrate my mum and my birthday...this year very cham...birthday that day din eat cake...after a few days only eat...then i only got two presents but was the same person gave me...my auntie and my cousin brother gave angpau...never mind...next week i will have one more from my dad...haha...

okla,yesterday nothing special...just i din go training again...this week skip alot...haha...
wish my family and friends happy and selamat 'today'...
love you guys...

lazy to study...

yo,today is my parent 26th wedding anniversary...wish them happy forever...ok,my exam is on nov 11...and now i still not yet study...somemore have to memories 56 pages of notes...will die man...and i hate history...the stupid lecturer din give us focus area...tak kan really have to study all ba....damn it...i hate study...
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ya,today program less but very tired...*today program*
400 warm up,4x100 fin kick,100 easy,4x100 kick fast,100 easy,10x50 paddle pullboy fly,100 easy,5x100 paddle pullboy 50 breast 50 back,100 easy,3x100 fly,100 easy,3x100 back,100 easy,3x100 breast,100 easy,2x100 free,300 easy...total 4300...

acutally program was ok...but dunno why i swim until very tired...maybe i din swim a few days liaw...sprint abit already tired like hell...haih!?old liaw lo...but im happy with my time...3x100 fly,1.18.3,1.18.4,the last one i swim free...the most happy one was breast,1.39,1.37.6,1.36.5...not bad ho...my training best time...hehe...coach said if my hand not pain sure can swim 1.26 easily...ya right...so easy:-p my target in okh is below 1.25...but i think very hard lo...oh ya,today some swimmers from coach kamal training under coach he...haha...they will so cute when coach said 3x100...they were like walau...haha...actually the program was 5x100...then coach said got 'new' swimmers so.....cut lo...but they were not bad o...coach very happy with their training...their timing also not bad...jun hao free first set already 1.06...so he can only swim one...but in the end all of us only swim 2x100...haha...cause coach said look at our face then tak sampai hati to let us finish so late...one thing i not really happy was too many people liaw...maybe is first day la...so very hard to arranged...maybe after biasa liaw will be very fun...haha...i dun really like MMSS la...so noise...and always scold kata kasar...

tomorrow i will skip training again...sorry coach...and finally today i ate cake...haha...okla,sleepy lo...
wish my family and friends happy and selamat tomorrow...
love you guys...

happy day with you guys...miss and love ya...

haha...today din go training because i have date with my old friends...hehe...sorry ya coach...i will go tomorrow then i will skip friday...haha...friday i have dinner with my family for celebrate my mum and my birthday...and also my parent 26th wedding anniversary...all so near nov 4,6,7...haha...


erm,so happy can meet both of you my dear old friends...hehe...eik how,how long we knew each other liaw...just now refresh back so funny...you said we meet at 1997...mean you were my friend for 11 years liaw...time pass so fast...i still remember the moment we train together and also with calvin and xian zhi...that time we follow coach fu for camp and we were the youngest...4 of us were same age but im the younger...haha...4 of us always together during training...and all the parents though me and calvin,you and xian zhi were couple...please la,that time we only aobut 12 le...we passed a few years together...of cause i still remember you help calvin to pikat me...haha...but in the end we still cant together...after that we meet kasturi...then three of us were so close...everyday stick together and stay inside the room and talk until next day...haha...there were no secret between us...but after 2004 sukma...you stopped swimming liaw...and i see you less and less...even you went singapure study but we still keep in touchof cause everytime you went back kl sure will ask me out...just like today...eik how,you really help me alot...you treat me very good...just like your family...when i have problem you help me...when i was down you cheer me up...thank you very much...you are my best friend forever...

joy,actually i knew you just a few years...you are from sarawak...i remember was mssm in shah alam...that was the first time i talk to you...i knew you though amira or eik how i forgot...after that we were so close and everytime comp you sure came to my team and talk with me...you were my pet sister because you said our birthday just 4days different...and im your big sister...i remember 2003 or 2004 malaysia open you cry and came to my room...this was because of D...you cry and i stay with you the whole night...this made us more closer...during 2005 our last year mssm in perak...you always came to selangor and talk with me...i still remember the last day last event...you came to the warm up pool find me...then suddenly kiss my cheek...i was shock...then you told me 'maybe this is the last time we meet each other,i will always miss you'...haha...you are so cute...then we took picture...but of cause we still can meet again...just like today...

today i went out with both of you and all the pass is full of my mind...happy one,sad one,angry one,sweet one...here i want to say sorry to calvin...sorry for make you sad that time...just bacause of this you stop swimming and also because you want to see me and train by yourself went mssm...im so sorry...but now see you have a girlfriend and so happy then i also happy la...

eik how,joy...thanks for today...im very happy...miss and love ya...
okla,enough lo...
wish my family and friends happy and selamat tomorrow...and also wish my mum happy birthday...i love you...muakz......
love you guys too...

thanks to everyone who wish me...

ok...now im 20 years old...and...Very Old liaw:-(...haih!?anyway,thanks to everyone who wish me...im so happy that i pass my birthday with you guys...thanks to ei ling for gave me present...and it was so nice and cool...thanks to jun cause have to wait until 12 just to wish me...*thanks* to annie asking everyone to wish me...THANK YOU SO MUCH...haha...

actually this year birthday just normal...nothing special...and i din eat cake this year...cant...tomorrow must go buy a piece of cake for myself...but i scared fat...hehe...another thing is he din msg me...so sad...i wait for the whole day but still din get your msg...haih!?you are so BAD...never mind...i will forget you soon...:-(

hey jun,i readed liaw...special for me somemore...hehe...of cause i saw you smile today more happy...smile always...remember you wrote it to me yesterday...if i tell you i cry after i readed...do you believe??seriously,i really almost cry...i so happy that i meet you...thanks for sharing everything,thanks for be by my side when i sad,thanks for cheering me up,thanks for always so good to me,thanks for lecturing me...look familiar??ya,you wrote this in yours too...but i not copy you o...it is true k...i can tell you one by one...but......i lazy to write here...haha...i think you know all thing i say la...if you want to refresh back all the thing then leave me a comment...hehe...i still remember when your birthday i wrote you a msg in facebook...now you wrote on you blog for me...haha...we thinking the same thing o...

okla,very sleepy lo...i trying to sleep early now...
wish my family and friends happy and selamat tomorrow...
love you guys...

20th years old liaw...

yo...tomorrow is my birthday...erm,actually is today la...haha...happy birthday to myself...do what le?maybe i will just sit at home...just like normal day...my father keep on asking me when i want to have dinner and what present i want...he ask until my mother and sister also cant tahan liaw...haha...my father so cute...i love you guys...my lovely family...hehe...so geli kan?haha...anyway,thanks to the people who wish me...thank you very much...love you guys too...haha...

yesterday i din go training AGAIN!!!!my stupid car rosak liaw...lucky not drive half way rosak...if not sure die lo...yesterday was my bad day...one of my favour song...haha...then too angry liaw so eat alot...530 ate rice then 7 my father came back ate mee and tong sui...if i really stop training sure fat until cant entry my room door...haha...cant image la...sure very funny and ugly...haha...and one more very important thing is sure no boyfriend...so sedih!!!:-(

tomorrow i hope i can get your msg...anyone know who?hehe...i think only a few people know ba...i give you guys tips...K...i think you all know liaw...right?very easy ho...haha...if you know dun tell other o...maybe some dunno yet...and i wont write the answer here...really want to know??then msg me or leave me a comment...if i happy i will tell you the answer...haha...20th years old liaw still so naughty...

but seriously,i really hope i can get your msg...i know i should forget you but i really cant make it...i need more time...dun worry...you wont know the true forever...i wont tell bacause i scared you wont msg or talk with me...i know you have girlfriend...so i wish you happy always...you happy then i also happy even i not the one who be with you...i <3 you K...

okla,better stop here...scared i cry...
wish my family and friends happy and selamat tomorrow
love you guys...and
thank you very much...

New car!!!!!

yesterday slept too late so din go training today...haih!?again!!!why i so lazy already one...anyone can help me??anyway,i go training or din go also not one care...:-(

today my mum woke me up and have *breakfast* together...we went eat dim sam...the resturant service so bad and the food there not nice and EXPENSIVE...stupid resturant...then we went klang lama see new car...*Honda City*...is a nice car but i like Accord more...the car number is WRY7542...all my cars have the same number...even my family phone number also xxx7542...haha...this is so nice...dunno why my father like this number so much...he told my is because his first car number was 7542...that mean my father very 'chang qin'...haha...the best thing is i can be the first person who drive this car...haha...so syok...no more manual...now jam my leg also wont numb...can speed also...yes!!!haha...

then we went home...my parents went genting and me,my brother,my sister stay at home...so damn boring...at night have dinner with my cousin...my favour steamboat...haha...today was raining day so is the best time go eat steamboat...and now watching F1 with my brother...erm...lazy to write la...continue tomorrow la...

wish my family and friens happy and selamat tomorrow...
love you guys...

November liaw...

*yesterday program* 400 warm up,16x25 kicking,100 easy,16x25 pulling,100 easy,6x100 im,100 easy,15x100 free 5pull,200 easy...total 3800m...

today is nov 2,but i writing about nov 1...today mood was ok...better than yesterday...this morning i cant wake up and go training...my phone alarm stop liaw i also dunno...haih!?sorry coach,actually i want to go one...i wake up at 9 something then continue sleep...11:30 wake up...i went 'breaskfast' with my family then i went back home...when i reach home was 1:30pm...i watched movie for while and i went training...before i watch movie i msn with jun and annie...jun talk to me and i feel that her mood was better (i think so la)...then annie asked me why i din go training in the morning...haha...annie...i think you know the reason...

i reached pool about 3:50pm...coach also reach liaw...i was looking at her face and try to guess her mood good or bad...cause jun told me that in the morning her mood not good...luckily,her mood very good in the afternoon...

*today program* 400 warm up,2x400 kicking 30 fast 20 easy,100 easy,5x200im paddle pullboy,100 easy,6x100fly 75 sprint,100 easy,6x100back 75 sprint,100 easy,5x100breast 75 sprint,4x25free sprint,400 easy...total 4900m...

actually the program was 4x6x100 75 sprint...but not enough time and a lot of public...the 5x200 im i only swam free...cause my stupid hand pain...for yesterday until now still pain...but i hope i can tahan...i dun want to waste my time go training and i cant get good result...of cause my target also...today lit was so hyper...talk a lot and play...something wrong with him...hehe...after training annie was suddenly not happy...i ask her but she said she is ok...annie...dun emo o...you promis me you wont o...

after training went home and have dinner with family...can call it a small party la...my grandmother and my auntie cook...my cousin also came and also my lovely baby...she was so cute today...but also very naughty...haha...of cause after dinner all the adults having beer outside...actually i want to write after my dinner...but kah yan was sitting beside me and keep looking what i doing in computer...want to read annie blog also cant...make me now only can write...haih!?i think better stop here...have training tomorrow...hope i can wake up...haha...but i think very hard la...

wish all my famly and friends happy and selamat tomorrow...
love you guys...

It is my first blog...

hello...this is my first blog and also my first time write blog...why i started write blog is because of my friends...they let me read their blog make me feel like have one...hehe...actually i want one for long time liaw...but always lazy to create one...finally i have one now...

i sakit kepala now...this few days have too many thing happen...all the thing was just stuck in my head...haih!?so fan la...make me cant sleep at night and no mood...when all this thing can get out my head?i hate this feeling...feel like want to injure myself again...K...you are the one who me feel this...why you always in my mind?why i cant forget you?why i always thinking of you?you are not my boyfriend...i always tell myself this...so that i cant dun think of you for a while...

cant sleep again tonight...feel like going training tomorrow,but very lazy to wake up...everyday only sleep a few hour...if continue like this i think my eyes will look like panda liaw...haih!?i think i better stop liaw...if not i really no need to sleep lo...hope my mood can be ok tomorrow...

wish all my friends and family happy and selamat tomorrow...
love you guys alot...