family is the most important thing in the world...cause no matter what happen to you, your family will support you...family love is the most powerful...what boyfriend girlfriend ask them blah la...
i am so worry about my dad...now his like a body without soul...everyday stay at hom nothing to do...then his leg pain until cant sleep well at night...made my mum also cant sleep well...and i dunno what to do...i felt that im so useless...i cant help them anything...i only see them everyday suffer...my heart is bleeding...now im trying to make them feel better by talking with them and help them do this do that...sometime when i want to break down i will went training...only training can help forget about all this...
but now i no mood to go training anymore...my NAG was no well because i sick for 1 week and my body was weak...but no one care...the sad thing was no one know what happen to me...i know i not suppose to say that but i just want to write out all my feeling here...this three days competition my family no one care...only my mum ask how my comp...i think my brother dun even know i got comp and where i comp...cause my sis saw my picture then only she ask where i comp...ans she din asked anything about my comp...is this sad...i know my dad problem is the most important...but can they give me some support...why i training so hard for...no one care...i training until i want to die...no one care...i cried every night...no one care...in the morning i will try my best to not showing my sad face...i dun want they know...but i think if i show also no one care right...never mind...i already biasa alone...so please dun disturd me at night...i want to live in my world at night...
this is he first blog i write in 2010...mean this year will be a sad year for me...
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